It's 1 AM, Easter morning and I should be in bed, but all evening I have been feeling the need to write. I won't be able to sleep until I do what I feel is in my heart.
Today is Easter! The day we celebrate our RISEN SAVIOR! All day I have been overwhelmed with such gratitude! I serve a very real, very alive, very present, very loving savior.
I began thinking about my brother today and remember where God has brought me since that Sunday in August almost 2 years ago. I admit, the past 17 months haven't been easy, there have been some very difficult mountains to climb, and there were times I cried out and questioned God, there were times I was very angry and I tried to run away, but He was ALWAYS there! He never left me. He was ALWAYS faithful!
Today, I spent 2 hours on my bike just thanking God for all that he has done in my life. I have so much to be thankful for. I have a wonderful husband who loves me, who is my very best friend. I have two unbelievable boys who are my heart! I have wonderful parents who spoil me. I have a neice and 2 nephews that we will spend the rest of our lives telling them how much their Daddy loved them, holding them, and walking with them through life. I have this AMAZING new home that I still can't believe is mine; it came during a time when I was so angry with God and yet He blessed me.
Today is Easter! The day I will celebrate My RISEN SAVIOR!
I am living proof that He can take whatever is broken and fix it, because just about everything in my life has been broken at one time or another. He can turn your mourning into dancing! He can take your broken heart and mend it! He can heal your disease! He can restore what has been taken from you! He can set you free from the things that seem hold you back! He will carry you! He can makes all things new!
There is no way I could have ever made it through these last 18 months without him. He has been my rock, my fortress, my strength, my comfortor, my counselor, my all in all! He will NEVER leave me or forsake me!
I miss my brother, there is not a day that goes by that I don't think of him and shed a tear. I probably won't make it through today without shedding 500, but God will wipe my tears! And I will lift my hands to heaven and I will celebrate MY RISEN SAVIOR! He is GOOD! HE REALLY IS!!!
I am so thankful for all he has done in my life, so much that I don't even deserve, yet he does it anyway. He is madly in love with me! He is bent on my sucess! He is real in my life! He loved me so much that He GAVE, HE GAVE, His LIFE for me. I was a sinner and He died so that I could come boldly into his presence CLEAN, SPOTLESS, RIGHTEOUS. So that I could have LIFE and LIFE ABUNDANTLY!
